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Oral FixationThe dull throbbing in the end of your finger is the only thing that alerts you to what you’re doing. You can’t really tell how bad it is in the darkness of your room, but there’s a slight coppery taste in your mouth. Your digits run across each other, lightly feeling the rough, ripped skin. The last time he saw you bleeding he made you promise to stop. You said you would. Maybe if it was an actual problem you would have kept your word. But it’s so passive, you can’t help it. Even now as you contemplate it you’ve began chewing on another finger. This time you pull your hand away and place it under your thigh. That should help for a bit. You know he’ll get angry when he sees your hands. It’s not fair; he has no right to be angry at you for your problems. Although it’s not actually anger, it’s really just concern. Maybe if you lotion them a lot or paint your nails they will look better. Then he won’t even notice. But you ha
five hour energyi suppose
last week was only an aftershock
of the earthquake you were before.
this place used to vibrate
with metal strings and melodic,
testimonies to life,
emitting coffee-scented moods
and the burn of it too.
i had memorized the
sounds of silence,
i couldn't help but relish it.
no longer had i known
the sounds of folk
and scent of mocha-
you became nothing more
than an echo of the laughter
i so desperately needed to hear again.
then the echoes got louder,
bouncing ferociously off the walls
to be made manifest
i walked into your room
expecting exactly what i found-
an unmade bed,
and an empty beer
(the one that you insisted you needed
just days ago).
i pressed my nose
into the pillow
for incense and cologne and starbucks
to penetrate my mind
and thinking fervently
i already know
what a clean sheet smells like."
how strong an aftershock can be,
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